Debate Debacle

Debate and Me next to impossible. Previously in my school dazs when i hear about competitions being held, i used to hide like a mouse in a corner9as if they were cat). Berhampur University conducted the Debate competiton. I don't know which breed dog bite me that I dare to take part in the competiton. My friends and my Sis on cell(u can do it, go ahead give your best shot, atleast try..)hmmmm. I thought for a while lets try once. I took part. As i entered the hall seeing talented students, i started having perspiration. My friends (so lovely) caught hold of me and boosted me to march forward with confidence. I enrolled my name in the competiton. Sooner names were called out(it was a chit system). When they hold the chit and about to open that time I could my heart beat lubb... dubb.. Finally ANKITA RAY i heard. I felt as if my heart came out in my hand. From the chair till the dice when I was moving I was totally nervous and blank i could not understand whats happening, where I m gushing. Well, my appreance apprehended others as if I would drop a BOMB But guess wat.....!!!I even could not lit a FHULJARI. I greeted everybody warmly and slowly my confidence evaporated. I went blank. Co-participants and judgees started murmuring. someone from behind shouted the topic but I could just hear.^^^&***#@!$%^%^ tin tin (TZP Ishaan's trauma). I was snugging from inside and a feeling of plz let me out of here or give a Burkha to cover my face ....so disgusting. All eyes glued at me with sympathetic feeling which further broke me down. Judgees decided to give a call back. Again a chance. Instead of being happy, I was like No NO nO... I don't need. Noone to hear my urge. being dismair I just left the place silently. Expectations of my friends were shattered into pieces. Tears were rolling down my cheeks. So helpless, paralysed I was feeling. I cannot blame my luck, its definately my fault which led me to downfall. Its truth through mistakes only we learn. Joining Berhampur University is lucky for me. Becaz here i got to face the reality, guts to fight with the odds. This moment brought a positive vibe in me and I decided to challenge my weakness further and overcome the hurdles.